Trojan's Militia (new word of the day)

[Trojan]

07/02/05 after enjoying a few cold beers, I got an idea to do something fun here on the forums to keep me and some friends oocupied and interested. We are all fans of NovaHQ and spend time on the forums. I thought it would be fun to organize a group to add to my signature and let them be recognized by all the NHQ members wherever I post, which is everywhere, public and private. I'm hoping that these few, proud, militia men, heh will become my closest comrades.

If you believe in Unity, Freedom, Respect and wanna fight against Cancer, STD's and AIDS then join Trojan's Militia, today! All you have to do is reply with, "count me in". I'll add you to my signature and list of VIP members. I just may make our own website for fun with my NovaHQ sub domain for us in the future to keep our friendships strong and alive for the years to come. Your ideas are welcome. Ask any question and it shall be answered. -Trojan

Shall I "Count you in" -Trojan

Originally posted by Trojan
"We (Trojan's Militia) are a group of diverse, talented people that believe in Feedom, Unity, Respect and eliminating Cancer, STD's and AIDS. We are a growing group of individuals and mission objectives will be agreed upon in a unanimous manner. We will lobby and support our mission for the years to come. We are looking for members to help our cause in any way they deem necessary."

Current Militia Members:

• Atholon
• Living
• front-liner
• -live-wire-
• Jeff
• Jason
• Lemy
• Tecoma2
• BADDOG
• Recoil
• Surbon
• Vixxy
• Visor
• B3NO
• Erik

• Get on the list today!
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Trojan's Tavern: Where the artists hang out!

I've been writing lyrics and poetry for many years. I have a book arranged that I have yet to complete. It may be a lifelong project that only my friends and family enjoy. I mainly want my children to have it after I am gone. Here are a few pieces that I would like to share with you all... .-troj

I would like to star off with:

Legerdemain

Delve deep into your somber soul
Sweep the roots that may be too old
Don’t be denied the devil may care
Tribulation arrives when all is fair

Before evening tide after the evening feast
Recollection will apprise the beast
From your spring of charm conjure a friend
Ask if this is the start or is this the end

Send your lucid eyes to the periphery of life
Sustain yourself sturdily along shall come strife
Never languish before your weakened peers
Loath the master that brings forth those fears

The simplexity of a vulgar display
Feel antipathy when you don’t get your way
For simple minds or petty impressions
Don’t enter into the day of misconceptions

Coming forth into a new age of prodigy
Say farewell to your worthless commodities
Bewildered by the fog and the misty haze
You have no time for one of those days

Form your preserverence into a sanctioned emotion
Hear with intention the significance of the ocean
Validate your senseless trepidations
Let your controlling influence fight the condemnations…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[-live-wire-]

I am impressed man! What a noble thing to put words to paper from the heart and mind. I think your descendants will adore you and appreciate your wit and insight . Inspirational !
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[Trojan]

Thank you Sir. This one above is one of my favorites. Not all are so hard to understand with difficult words for the not so educated like me, but street smart.

I will post another soon... .-troj

[Trojan]

This one is a lyric for a song written for my former band "Memphis Tripwire".

Eyes first

You don’t even know how
And what game you’re playing
So how can the world understand
What the hell you are saying

I can see you play it off
Then you walk away so cool
You are killing all our youth
So I’m calling you a fool

Yeah I’ve seen the light go out
I’ve damn near done it all
But I picked myself right up
Right after the fall

Just so you know, all in good time
The weak will come strong
If you got the guts
Come and prove me wrong

They will scrape you up and move you aside
Maybe that’s already been done
I hate to admit we were on the same road
Since you took your life with your own gun

I’ve shed my many tears
And lived some lonely years
I stared my demons down
And fought off my many fears

Get back up on your feet
Start heading up the hill
Behind we will leave you
For the road to kill

Is it uneducation
Is it fact or fiction
Has it set in yet
You want to bet?

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

Here is another from the same era for the same band.

Fear the Storm

The sky is getting dark, the clouds are coming
Seems it’s the end, the black rain is pouring
The lightning strikes, the thunders rolling
There’s nowhere to hide, you better hold on

May the fear of the storm, be in our minds
Wipe the tears from your face, why even cry
Just ride the lightning and feel the thunder
The eye of the metal storm is what you are under

There comes a time in everyones life
When the storm comes down, no one knows why
The havoc it causes it leaves too much pain
Nothing but dreams lost, people crying in vain

The questions fly out, should destruction come
The answers unknown, what’s done is done
People running around, scared and hopeless
Acid from the skies leaves them one last wish

Black clouds coming closer to the ground
You try to run but there is death all around
Bodies lying at your feet, blood in the gutters
Sanity wonders off as your heart flutters

Lightning strikes near the end of the storm
Streets and buildings are ripped and torn
The storm leaves, moves to another land
Don’t ever say it wont come back, because i can…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[atholon]

Coolness

[Trojan]

Thx!

True hatred control

I don’t know what you’ve been told
But I see you selling your soul
And I know what’s wrong and right
And I don’t believe all their lies

You see, I’m really not a fool
I’ve been taking you back to school
I can see the tears that are shed
For all the Martyrs in the land of the dead

I’ve seen this world through bloodshot eyes
And have heard foolish reasons for men to die
Black or white, they bleed the same
A war of difference in Gods name

True hatred we must control…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

The fox

To dwell in your past will drown you
In pools of your own blood, sweat and tears
Better ask yourself which road did I take
When you burn the bridges to your fears

Which bridge did you cross this time
From what road did you arrive
How many shells were policed
What kept your spirit alive

It’s pretty tough now Mr. President
So many voices on the box
Telling lies and losing friends
Watching the hounds outsmart the fox…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

The war

Can you not see the people hurting
And the pain that is trapped inside
Try to understand the sorrow
For the people that have died

I am trying to make you aware
What seems to good is digging a grave
For every man, woman and child
That has spent their life as a slave

So many choices, yet so many rules
What is wrong, what is right
No one ever took the time
To teach us how to lose a fight

No more anger, no more fear
Your day of peace has come so near
We’ve lost our share but are winning the war
Now we know, what we are fighting for

The strong which are the weak in your eyes
We keep on keeping on
We’ve been through our battles of war
As we live our life as a pawn

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

Sign

Your self prosecution
Is no solution
Demanding the best
Is the only resolution

Live for others and yourself
Caring too much like I do
We all will be stronger
And we may lose a few

Sanctity within us
You are doing fine
Look for it again
I hope you see your sign…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

Shake the sorrow

I have been learning about a prophet
Who has showed me a new way
You say your soul seems empty
And your beliefs left in dismay

We’ve forseen the shadows dance
In the twilight of the new year
The rain deceives the pain
When vows for eternity are near

If you have fought and just couldn’t win
And find your soul is fading to black
Think of things you could have been
Taste the glory and take it back

Broken homes may not cause broken bones
But it does darken ones soul
When you’re smoked out of your childhood
You tend to shovel your own coal

Broken free
From below the knee
I left the ball behind
But took the chain with me
It’s time to shake the sorrow
Journey on for tomorrow…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

Forsaken

You had better fight this feeling
Don’t be wheeling and dealing
You could lose your heart and soul
And it’s your soul that they are stealing

Go on and reach down inside
Maybe there is nothing left to hide
Let go of the pain that lingers on
And fight manditory genocide

Never for you to see again
You’ve been betrayed by a friend
Lost in your world of hell
You’re only surviving by living in sin

Don’t cover your naked scars
Or hide behind cell block bars
Search with me for the stairway
That will take us to the stars

Dance and watch the clouds
As they begin to cover the sun above
What is this that I have seen
I believe it’s all hate and no love

So cleanse your evil roots
Better yet, chop yourself down
Plant your seeds not in sand
But harvest your mind on solid ground

Forsaken by this evil sin
Losing this war within
Dancing with the flames shadow
Never to see the light again

I’ve been forsaken
You have been forsaken
What is this hell on Earth
That God is makin’…

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Scott]

good poems man.. i like

[Trojan]

Thanks man!

I've got many, just haven't posted much yet.

I wasn't sure what kind of response I would get. I enjoy writing like the gfx guys do sigs I guess. It's a passion. Never enough. The spam section enables me to share with y'all.

[Trojan]

Creature Deep

I am tried of the suppression
It is a true hatred aggression
Nothing bad could come from this
But a war consisting of confusion, illusion

We are gaining our divine ground
Hour after crooked hour
So wake up! I am just like you
I’m your minute man and I’m no fool

To this day you have got me locked in
And you bet I want to get out
You better believe I’m moving
I know your own doubt

So say what you want to say
Let me play want I want to play
I am going to do what I want to do
And I’m still coming home to you

You all saw me struggling
I fought my way out of there
Now I’m locked in and locked out
Here, there and everywhere

Believing is the root to your success
So you should water the tree
Believing will take us anywhere
And anywhere should be free for you and me... .

© 2005 by: Troy D. Beadles

[Trojan]

I hope my opening story allowed you to get to know me better. Please feel free to comment about anything I have written.

[Trojan]

Hello. Welcome to Troy's Tavern [Trojan]





My name is Troy David Beadles. I am 31 years old. I was born in Chicago Heights (Cook County) Illinois, March 6th 1974. The first 8 years of my life I lived in Illinois. In 1982 we moved south to Germantown, TN. near Memphis. My parents divorced in 1985. I lived with my mother until 1986. My father had moved to Tupelo, MS. The birth place of Elvis A. Presley and soon after I joined him and his new family in Tupelo. Both parents remarried. I was a bit torn between my parents. I wanted to be with both of them but could only live and go to school in one place. I stayed with my dad until 1989. Then I moved backed to Tennessee until 1991. My senior year after some struggle and heartache that many teenagers go through, I moved back to Tupelo to start over.

While in Memphis in High School, My Sophmore and Junior year, I was a singer in a Rock band, playing cover songs and writing originals. I always had it good with the girls. I was a smaller kid in High School but have been told I was as cool as they come. My Sophmore year, a popular cheerleader at my school and I were liking each other. I was invited to go on a trip with with all the jv girls to OpryLand in Nashville, TN. I had a blast. Walking, talking and flirting with all the friendly good looking cheerleaders. It was a great experience.

It was not too soon after I met a beautiful girl at the Mall with 2 other of her friends. I was there by myself. I ran into 3 good looking girls at the Carousel. One was the spokeswoman, the other two just smiled and giggled. Well, we exchanged phone numbers and went about our way. Later that night, I called the cute girl that talked the most. She said, take your pic. We all like you. I thought I was in heaven. I wanted all three but there was one that was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. To this day, 15 years later, I've never met, seen or been with another girl that I was so in love with or as beautiful. Well, to cut this part of the story short, I made up with the girl of my dreams and we spent over two years off and on together. The reason for breaking it off with her was mostly my fault. I was the new kid at my school. Those girls went to Germantown where I once went to school. We all knew of the same friends we grew up with. But, back at my school. My Junior year, I became even more popular. "How could that be? You were already in with the cheerleaders", heh. Well, my junior year the Senior girls took interest in me. 2 of which pretty much ruined my relationship with the younger girl from Germantown which I was so in love with. It was tough, my love and I went to different schools. During the day I was always talking to the Seniors, flirting, passing notes. Eating in the Senior lunch room as a Junior. It was inevitable. By the end of the year I pretty much had to pick between the two Seniors at my school or a Sophmore at Germantown. I was pretty much seeing all 3 girls by this time and they all knew it. It was a disaster in the making. I was still rocking it out with the band, growing my long hair and drinking booze whenever I could. I was living it up. My parents pretty much let me do whatever I wanted to do as long as I was smart enough to keep out of jail.

Well it was the end of the school year in 1991 when my life changed forever. I was asked by one of the Seniors to go to the Senior Prom. I jumped at the chance. She was the sexiest girl at my school and I'm not exagerating. I had already asked my Sophmore girlfriend from Germantown to go my Junior Prom but it was the same night I believe. So after taking her to get a dress, I said yes to the Senior and had to tell the Sophmore we couldn't go. It marked the end of almost a 2 year run. I was torn, really.

Soon after all of that went down, a great friend had a party. His parents went out of town. We stocked up on several cases of beer and coolers. It was just me and the boys partying it up until my Sophmore gf from Germantown and her friends came. We all had a blast. I was making everybody laugh and making a good time even better. Later that night, my gf and I got into an arguement about how drunk I was and she wanted to go home. To cut this short, I know I could give more details but me and a buddy who I set up with one of my gf's friends and I drove them home. We never made it back to the party and I had broken it off with my girl of almost 2 years. We crashed into a dirt embankment going about 70 mph. We had missed a stop sign and went straight through an intersection. My buddy lost his life and I was almost dead.

Soon after recovery, I cut it off with the two Seniors, one had become more serious with me than the other but the other and I became real good friends and I'll talk about her again. So at this point, I lost a great friend, 3 beatiful girls, I quit my band, my job and moved to Tupelo to start over for my Senior year. The popular girls in my class weren't as interested in me as I was used to in my younger years. Seems they all had boyfriends that year. Well I didn't care because I still landed some good looking not so popular single girls. I formed a band quickly and spent that year playing and practicing. It was a confusing year to be honest. I was still messed up from the accident and loss of love. I was still a rebel and never could fullfill the year like my Sophomore and Junior years. That whole year, I wrote some of the greatest love songs I have ever written. I knew what love was now and you never know what you've got until it's gone.

To cut short again, later that year I lost another friend. He died in jail. Some say he was beat to death, others say he commited suicide. It was a mess. By then, I had to make another move. I didn't want to go back to Tennessee, I didn't want to stay in Mississippi so, I shaved my head, started working out, stopped smoking and joined the Army. There were two things I wanted to be growing up. A soldier and a rock star. After some testing and rearrangements, I was transferred to the Marine Corps. I graduated Parris Island in May of 1993. I went to two schools for training after bootcamp. Marine Combat Training where I graduated top 5 as #4 out of 75 Marines and School of Infantry where I graduated top 10 as #6 out of 100 Marines. I was meritoriously awarded my first 6 months in. I was sent to an elite unit after training. We became Special Operations Capable and spent some time overseas.

While training in California in 1993 with my new unit, I recieved a letter from the Senior I spoke about earlier. She was the Senior that I didn't go to the Prom with. Well after making it back to the east coast and I had some time to go home for a long weekend, we hooked up. After sometime, I was in love with her and tried to get her to move to North Carolina to be with me. It didn't work out, I was devistated and I soon realized I wasn't happy being alone any longer. I was meeting girls all the time and making memories that will last a life time but she was one of those girls that just haunted me. I've got some great stories, heh. She was always on my mind. I cut my career short in the Military and moved back home to the Mid South to find love again and settle down. That girl I just spoke about and myself couldn't make things work but we both loved each other and still to this day consider each other as great friends even if we don't talk for years at a time anymore.

Anyway, I moved back to Mississippi. My dad had an apartment over one of his garages. I lived there for a few months. Making more memories with many awesome girls. But there was this one. This girl had lived in my neighborhood while we were growing up, she's not the only neighborhood girl I liked alot but I can't tell you everything. I'm trying to keep this short. She was younger than me and we never hung out. But while I was away, she grew up and was quite the hottie I was looking for. Her and her sexy friend moved from Tupelo to Tuscaloosa Alabama to go the University of Alabama. She asked me to move in with her. Soon after, I moved over there to be with her but we learned we were worlds apart. We were compatable physically but mentally she was just getting wild and I was trying to settle down. It didn't work out but let me tell you a little story about the first time we hooked up. When I came home from bootcamp, me and my buddies all went out to this place called the SOB. Shrimp and Oyster Bar. They had live entertainment and was a great place in Tupelo to go and party. Well, me and the boys were sitting around drinking. I was telling my bootcamp stories amd along came this beautiful girl that I didn't even recognize. It was the girl I moved in with in Bama but a couple years prior. The neighborhood girl that had a crush on me all those years growing up but I never knew it. She introduced herself and her brother was with her. He was a Marine Corps Officer. Him and I talked about alot of stuff and me and his little sister emediately hit it off. Well to make a long story short, me and this girl went to a hotel room and spent the night. Her brother paid for the room and pretty much gave me permission to escort his sister. It was originaly his room but he soon booked another for himself and his female companion. I was very happy. So that's that.

Back to after we split up, I moved from Alabama to Tennessee. I decided to get a band together and play around Memphis. I reformed my old High School and recorded a few great songs. I then moved on to a few other guys that could play and practice more. We started giging around Memphis, hearing our names on the radio and playing in some historical places. Memphis is well known for it's music. I was happy once again without a definate woman in my life but I was still kinda looking. One night, we were playing a warehouse party. Maybe a couple hundred were there. Well, I was on stage in the middle of a song. I pointed out to my bass player this group of fine girls in the audience. After our set, we got off the stage. I put my mic down, went to the beer cooler and stepped outaside, where a bunch of fans came out and started partying with me. I heard my name called by my bass player. I turned and looked and he had this beautiful woman holding his hand. They walked up to me and he looked at here and said, "what's you name?" She said Sarah. He looked at me and said, "Troy, this is Sarah. Sarah, this is Troy." and he walked off. I don't really want to talk about this in detail but we hooked up the next weekend. A few months later, we were moved in together. A few months after that we married and had a child. Her name is Melody. Quite suiting if you ask me. I adopted her first child who was 5 at the time. Now she is 15. So I had become a husband and a father all at once. I had a great job and was giging with the band. Soon, after the workload at home and at work started to build up, I quit the music scene and dedicated my life to family. We lived in Horn Lake Mississippi, just south of Memphis.

Soon after we had our baby, my dad was opening a computer store. He wanted me to be the Manager. He was retireing but still had other commitments so he needed me to run the place. We bought a nice house, both landed great jobs and the kids were happy. Well, then came old friends and new ones that wanted to get together to make some music. Before long, I had a new band and we practiced at my house. My wife was jealous of all the time I was spending with them. That was the begining of the end. Then came Delta Force in 1998. Between work, the band and Delta Force, my time with her was minimal. We tried to work it out for some time but couldn't. We divorced in 2000. When we seperated, I met three girls in a weeks time. All which had a stay in my King sized bed, heh. Some time passed. I realized I was being selfish and tried to reconcile. Well when we split, she took a job in North Carolina. I love that State and had lived there for some time while in the Military. I sold my house and moved there to be with her and the kids. I gave up my job, friends and family to go there.

Well after a year or so in the Delta Force Community, I had put together a site called The Guild League. I still had DF on the brain and my wife hated it. I tried to keep her involved and she made some friends but was never happy about it. We then figured out that the marriage wasn't going to work. I moved back home to Tupelo. My dad bought 25 acres with house and an apartment. The first couple years I was home I lived in town at my mothers. I was financialy hurting by this time so I couldn't buy another house at this point. I stayed there as long as I could. My personal life was making things difficult by living at home. I needed my own place again. My dad asked me if I wanted to come live with him on his land and help him with the land and animals, etc. He gave me the apartment to live in and keeps me busy here these days. It's somewhat like Bonanza around here. All of my brothers and sisters all live within 10 minutes of each other now and we get together all the time. The only set back I have is that my kids are 700 miles away. I get them every other major holiday and ever summer school vacation. We have joint custody but I pay child support every month.

Throughout the years, I have stayed loyal to the Delta Force Community. I took The Guild League and turned it into NovaGuild. Which was a complete success from 1999 to 2002. We may never see another tournament site with the success I had with it but I will do what I can to help NHQ become well known for it's tournaments if we can continue to keep the Community strong. In 2002 I took time off from NovaGuild. I did for many reason, some I can't discuss. But in March of 2005, I became Admin here at NHQ and am making my comeback. I can't think of a better place to be.

Sorry the stories above aren't very detailed but this would be a book if I hadn't cut things short. If you made it this far, God bless ya, heh. Now you know me a little better. I am currently single and always looking. I've really not had many gf's since my divorce. I've not tried very hard to find one. I am spending alot of my time with my family and friends, making up for all the time lost over the years. I want to do for myself these days. I will be writing here often about my activities.

Comment [here].

[NaughtyPerry]

whoa mate, i started off as a kid, had a good 15 yrs of my life, and for the last year been reading that hehe you have done alot lol

[Trojan]

lol, hey. Thanks for reading. There is so much I left out. That is just what came to mind as I was typing thismorning. I've had a good run. If I died tomorrow I would have had a fullfilling life at 31.

[Trojan]

I'm just sitting here thinking about how long I have been computing. Since 1986. Almost 20 years now. I've been gaming since the first day I ever touched a computer. I should retire, heh. I'll use a pc for the rest of my life for many reasons. It is my #1 source of entertainment and lively hood among other things. Many of my friends here don't even have a computer. I think every home should have one. I've read people spend more time online than they watch tv these days. I know I do.

Well my mother came over today. She usually comes over on Saturday to help me clean my place up. It's good for her to feel needed so I've got no problem with her coming over to help out. We had a good visit.

My dad is having a Party tonight at his place but it is just friends. No family. My step mom wants me to cook the ribs on the grill for them but I may go to a party. I'm not sure what I will do just yet. I've got quite a headache. I think I'll pop open a beer and see if that helps.

Today, I've got Southpaw in the fridge. It's pretty good for a cheaper beer.

Cheers!