[Systemkaos]

^^ you let bad experiances mess up what you have had in the past, you dont learn from the past therefor you feal that way and im sorry for you in every way. Dealing with what you loose and how you cope after is what makes you a much stronger person. How can you ever know what could have been. Its about the ride not trying to shelter your self. Im sticking my own foot in my mouth saying this, but i had to explain and get something off my chest. At this point in time i dont want to think about it but i have to. When i leave if she does or doesnt come, i wont know till it happens, and who knows that something might be great or tragic. The point is i learned something and it made me stronger as a person, not living my life sheltered or in fear of emotional and mental pain. You are afraid of loosing something you never had and probly never will have. THAT one thing could change your life, your views, your attitude, but you will never know will ya? Cuz you were afraid of emotion, and that makes you a weak person